Sometimes, seeing people succeed inspires and uplifts me;
Sometimes, it makes me feel small.
Sometimes, seeing people in love warms my heart;
Sometimes, it makes me feel so alone.
Sometimes, seeing others’ dreams awakens mine;
Sometimes, it makes me want to scream with frustration that my dreams are suffocating.
Sometimes, seeing my community flourish gives me confidence;
Sometimes, it makes me feel that I will never be enough.
Sometimes, I feel like I can do anything;
Sometimes, all I can think is “why haven’t I done this already?”.
Sometimes, seeing success makes me want to dive into life;
Sometimes, it makes me want to curl up and hide.
Sometimes, I am so angry and mean with these feelings;
Sometimes, I embrace and celebrate the positive and run away from the negative ones;
Sometimes, I can accept and love them all as part of my unique human experience.
All the times, I am.
I was scrolling through social media one night during the week, waiting for someone. I suddenly noticed the range of emotions I was experiencing, a lot of them negative, and how loudly my shitty committee was criticising me for feeling them. I ended up writing this straight after observing a wonderful yoga class that gave people permission to be themselves. I’m nervous to share it as I don’t like admitting this jealously and insecurity so I asked my wonderful friend Siobhan (of ToGetHer Further) for her opinion. Her response was so heartfelt and supportive so here it is. I hope it resonates with you and let’s you know it’s okay to feel negative emotions; they don’t make you a bad person, they make you human.
light and love xxx